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Saying No To You Is Saying Yes To Me
Travel Blog : March 24th, 2017 A Lesson in Patience From time to time, I get overwhelmed and feel as though many of my thoughts collide, and clarity is no longer there. Sometimes, it even gets to the point where my mind is so crowded with thoughts that when someone asks me a question, I’ll begin to stutter because I can’t clearly articulate what's going on inside of my mind. It's like I have a stack of paper in my hands, and instead of them being neatly sorted, they fall everywhere all at once. When this happens, my spirit tells my mind, “We need to fast”. I immediately go into prayer, and decide what I am fasting from or in some cases from who. Normally, I will eliminate TV or Social Media, possibly alcohol or cigars. However, this particular time, I decided to eliminate my emotional dependence on some people so that I could be by myself. I told those closest to me about the fast, and that I would be a little distant for a few days as a result. From that point, I began meditating, and these three thoughts came to me. Ulysses you need to learn how to: 1. support 2. be patient, and 3. see more: open your eyes to what's really in front of you and use that information in your decision making. These thoughts resonated with me because much of the overwhelming feeling that I had was because I was struggling with how to fully support someone very close to me. As a result I was losing patience with this person, and others; and I wasn’t taking time to see how negatively all of this was affecting myself and others. I immediately prayed and asked for an abundance of patience. I asked God to teach me how to support, because I am a great provider and fixer, but I haven’t always known how to be supportive in friendships and intimate relationships. I also asked that my eyes be more open so that I could see clearly and more distinctly. Then I apologized to myself, the creator, and to those affected by my actions. The next morning, I woke up meditating about patience, and it just so happened to be a travel day. So I took a shower, packed my bags and looked at my Uber app to check the price to the airport: $53. I decided it was too expensive and that instead I'd walk outside and catch a taxi, which would be cheaper. Sure enough, as soon as I went outside, a taxi came straight away (as my British friends would say). “Boss, where are you going?” the taxi driver said. "LaGuardia, Terminal C.” I told him. He asked me how I wanted to get there, and I told him that I trusted him and I buried my head in my phone. At this point, I had more than enough time to get to the airport. The driver said that he appreciated that I trusted him and he proceeded to talk my ears off. Sidebar: I always feel like I have a sign on my forehead that says: EVERYONE, PLEASE TALK TO ME IN THE MORNING, AND INTERRUPT MY QUIET TIME. My normal “pre-fasted” self, would have been upset, thinking: "dude shut up and drive”. This time, I heard a small voice say, “Don’t worry, you’ll make your flight, just be patient”. So, I proceeded to talk to the driver, and learn a lot about him, until finally I said, “Sir, you are amazing, but my flight is boarding in 10 minutes”. He understood and literally sped the rest of the way to the airport, and I made my flight. The moral of the story for me is that I need to be patient and trust the process. Many times in life, we lack patience because, in my opinion, we don’t trust the process and even less the outcome of that process. Personally, I tend to rush things because I think I need to figure out the way to guarantee the result I desire. However, now, as a daily practice, I've decided to make room to hear that small voice that tells me to be supportive, be patient, and to take the time to actually see what's in front of me.
Fall Forward
Triggers and Sensitivity
Making the Decision to be a Consistent Giver “Take 2 Guys, you ready? I'm proud of you“ "Love you Mr. Owens, “ and without missing a beat, I respond, “I love yall too”.

May 6, 2006, I walk across the stage at Alice Tully Hall in New York City, and I graduate receiving the degree of Bachelors of Fine Arts in Jazz Studies from The Juilliard School. In one respect, I feel I have arrived. My mother, father, sister and fiancée are sitting in the audience beaming with pride, all saying, "He did it" and accomplished what he set out to achieve and we are here to witness it. On the other hand, we leave graduation, have a nice dinner and when I get back to my apartment, I literally have an anxiety attack. I am pacing back in forth in my Harlem apartment while my parents are trying to sleep, thinking: What the hell am I going to do next? I make some calls, and I decide to temporarily move back to Jacksonville, Florida because I literally have no gigs nor any real prospects of making money as a drummer.


I have now come to understand that silence and inactivity does not reflect lack of ability, but more so a redirection from the Creator. When God quiets things in your life, in my humble opinion, it’s because He wants you to let Him move you in the direction that has already been pre-destined for you. Many times, it's only when our backs are against the wall and we’re forced to see only His plan, that we surrender.


So, August 2006 I’m in Jacksonville, teaching at Jacksonville University, and I have opened a teaching studio at my parent’s home for local students of all ages, just to make enough money to eat. Soon after I opened the studio, my students start to tell me how much of a difference I'm making in their lives.  My family and I have always been very dedicated to building Arts and Business ministries within Churches. But every time we would put our efforts towards building a ministry, something would happen within the function of the church that would reveal the lack of business integrity involved on their end. At this time however, I finally suggested to my family that we build our own empire under our name, and with our own vision as the focus so we could make a maximum impact in the city of Jacksonville for kids


To be transparent, in 2006 I was surrounded in student loan and credit card debt (trying to survive), and had minimal income. I remember having a dinner with Dr. Billy Taylor (Jazz Legend) and Loren Schoenberg (Director of the Jazz Museum in Harlem), and told them about this dream I had to start a foundation for children. But, I asked them how can a person actually start a business when they are in the “red” financially. They laughed at me, and Dr. Taylor said, “Son, everything I do, is in the red”.


So in 2007 my family and I began this vision of Don’t Miss a Beat (I’m abbreviating this story). I remember my fiancée even asking me, "How are you going to start something where you have to travel back and forth, and give to kids, when you can barely afford your rent? And when will I see you? How will we build our lives together when you are trying to save everyone else’s life?" (That’s for another blog:)


I have always had this feeling that everything was going to work out. Oddly enough, every time I gave to my kids, destiny would give back to me the unspoken desires of my heart and mind. Maintaining that balance of giving, while knowing that all of what I needed hadn’t completely been worked out yet, was and still can be hard.


Another difficult thing for me in the beginning was really giving my all. I remember having two conversations that shifted my commitment to my kids and the organization. The first was with my mother and she confronted me on how I was giving my time, but very begrudgingly. I sort of had the attitude of, these kids should be happy that we are taking the time to give to them. She said to me, "Well if we didn't choose to be there for the kids, God would have used someone else". Basically, she put me in check and helped me understand that though it is a blessing for my kids to have us, it is equally a blessing for us to have them. More than a blessing, it is a privilege that we were chosen to give and do this great work.


The other conversation was with my friend Breanna. I had a Holiday fundraising benefit where I had gone on stage that night and spoke to the parents about how my life had radically changed because of the arts. I used the example of my life as a success story and the reason they should enroll their kids into our arts program, so their lives would be happily ever after, too. I got home that night and "Bre" said to me, "Ulysses, your speech was great, but it lacked something. I said, "What? I thought the parents could feel the kind of success I anticipate for their kids." She explained to me that I was disconnected from those parents and their needs, most of whom could barely feed their kids daily. She said that I was telling them about how great my life is now but that I needed to connect with their lives beyond the agenda I had for their kids.


I was so humbled by these two conversations and I literally opened my heart and gave EVERYTHING as a result! I started booking my personal life and tour schedule around my kids and the organization. I turned down countless events and things that would have been more self-serving, and instead trusted that what is for me, is for me. I also began tithing fully to my organization. I went beyond to connect with the families of the children: showing up to homes, parent-teacher meetings and helping children with difficult moments in their lives. And it was beyond fulfilling. I decided, that starting the organization wasn't enough, I had to fully commit.


My family treated me differently when I changed my behavior. They saw my sweat equity. And the organization transformed. We are a family and a team transforming the community collectively because we are thankful to have been chosen to give to these children and families, which ultimately serves our community.


Now, Don’t Miss a Beat has grown to having two full community art centers, multiple teams of staff, sponsors, grants and private donors. And just last month, April 19th through the 23rd, my children performed at my alma mater The Juilliard School and recorded their first album in New York City. We have touched over 1000 children with the work that we do and I am so proud of my kids.


One of my friends recently asked me, “How do you do it all?” I responded with "because I have to."  I believe we must constantly be sowing in life, not just reaping. Creating and committing to Don't Miss A Beat was one of the best decisions I've ever made in my life, and I hope my story empowers you to make your own difference.

Generosity or Irresponsibility?


For Tonya:

Most of my realizations come from introspective conversations with my friends. I often speak to those closest to me about my personal revelations and the work I am doing to become a more whole and enlightened individual .


A recent conversation led me to share how I often feel taken advantage of for my generosity. Due to the perception of my financial situation, many within my circle of associates and friends expect me to give freely or pay for things. As a result I sometimes feel people take my kindness for weakness.


After explaining to my friend various situations, I concluded with, "I guess it's because I am so generous." Tonya didn't hesitate to lay down the truth when she said, "Ulysses in all cases I don't think you are generous, in some I just think you are irresponsible. There are moments when your kindness and generosity are necessary and it's beautiful, but at a certain point, be careful not to be irresponsible with what is given to you.” She explained that some people are counting on my irresponsibility to feed their own desires. And when I continue this pattern, it creates a dynamic where I feel the friendship or connection is one-sided and hence not useful.


As I thought more about what she said I realized that being in a one sided relationship makes it easy to feel like the victim. Once I  feel victimized, it’s easy to not take accountability for my actions. In my life, the quickest way not to fix myself is to get comfortable in the position of being the victim; feeling like the whole world is set up against me, and seeking solace and reward for being put in that position. This happens until a great friend says, "Hey snap out of it. You created this shit."


As a man of action, I decided to get real with myself and figure out why I created this narrative of being "too generous" in the beginning. I am the kind of person that if I enjoy your company, and want to spend time with you, but you can't afford an outing,  I’m like, who cares, come along and let's have a good time anyway. Well, that continual acceptance of someone not being able to take care of their own needs breeds a behavior where that person could potentially feel that they never need to have their stuff together. Thus, making what was supposed to be a partnership or friendship, into co-dependency.


How did I deal with breaking the cycle?


I simply stopped! I had to realize that my needs and my money matter despite how generous I might want to be. Beyond just taking a break from certain folks, I needed to really fix my behavior, so that I don’t create this dynamic in new relationships. Being aware of my own needs will inevitably fix this situation from occurring again. And having to be more responsible over time cures the irresponsibility.


I will continue to be generous, as it gives me great joy, but while making sure that my generosity is not at the cost of my own personal responsibility to my needs, financial or otherwise.